ok… I have not been as good as I would have liked to have been but the total is now … 39 lbs and 67 inches. 

I promised myself that this week I would be more compliant and not get off track.. I have had Vacation, then Corp was down and a few too many lunches and dinners out.  So shakes were not a priority, I  know I know bad of me.. Learned the lesson.. but I still lost.. just not as fast as I would want to. 

Hard going to the gym when it is 100 degrees outside.   Walking, weightliftin and then sitting in the sauna.  Makes for ONE HECK of a HOT Me.  

I picked the kid up from Daycare and the people look at me as if I am going to stroke out… Face all BRIGHT RED… I just laugh and say.. no I did this to myself on purpose.. go figure.

Well will keep you posted… its just weird.. started in April… and its June… should be 2 months… yet 12 weeks is coming soon.. to me that is 3 months.. .too weird…

Wow… cant believe it has been this long since I blogged. I know I had a vacation… but not that long… I missed a week along the way… sorry about that.
Did find out I am better on my diet when I am working, when I am home.. I have too much time on my hands.
Well after nine weeks the totals are….

inches gone… 63

Lbs lost 37.

Not as good as I wanted it to be… but it is better than standing still and it is still the best way as I am not starving myself… I am still eating more than I probably should… especially on vacation but overall I am proud of what I am doing.

Still a bit nuts at times… but overall the family is surviving.

Nothing much is going on other than that… just getting through each and every day one at a time.. shake by shake.. snack by snack.. and gym time by gym time. I did switch to going to the gym at 5 am. It is hard going at 4 – 430 in the afternoon when it is almost 100 degrees. Much easier going at 445 – 5am when it is mid 70’s. I am up most of the time anyways. Just utilizing my time better.

Will keep you posted better.. I hope.. as to how it is going. week by week. Thanks for watching the journey with me.

I keep wondering if it will ever get easier…
Last week.. has been a bear… gotta love my Husband and his patience.. I have not only been diet weary but pms’ng at the same time.
What does that mean??? No offering me chocolate to make it better… no stuffing my face with all the bad stuff.. just dealing with the cravings.. and getting through.

I am down 2 more lbs… for a total of 30.4 and up to 54 inches lost. I know.. its alot… for 6 full weeks.. but dang.. I so want it to be like… 50 … and all the saying.. it didnt go on overnight it wont come off over night doesnt make it any easier.
I sat there today and looked at a picture of myself from 1985… and could only stare at it.. what on earth.. why didnt I see then what I see now.

It is so hard realising I have always seen the fat lady in the circus when I looked into the mirror. Even at a time when I was as pretty as the picture showed.
Oh how I wish I learned to see myself different. But hindsight is 20/20 all I can do is try to teach myself not to see things like that anymore. Hard to do now.. when I have created what I always saw.
That too will take time to change. but I hope that someday I will see the truth in the mirror. Ok.. enough of the feeling sorry for myself… I am doing well.. and in time… it will be better. The journey is so long.. but it took 20 plus years to get here… and it was just sooo much more fun getting here than it will be getting back. *laughs* well thanks for listening to my rant. Hope your week was a good week.

Ok… I am late posting this one.. its been a hard week. one of our employees died this week.. she was only 20… and left a beautiful son who just turned a year old the weekend before. what a loss.. and such a shame. then on Wednesday after going to the gym.. I came home… went to go out on the porch and stepped right onto a tennis ball that is one of the dog’s toys… torqued out the left side of my body. needless to say.. I spent most of the rest of the week resting and laying horitzontal on a heating pad. but the results are in for the 5th week…. and they are…..
WEight Loss….. 3 1/2 lbs and another 6 inches lost. Not too bad for such a horrid week. Each week seems to take forever to pass and yet in the grand scheme of things … 5 weeks isnt a long period of time. at this rate… I will meet my ultimate goal in …… oh heck with that… I am not even going there…. lets just continue on with my goal is 10 lbs…
at a time… 10 lbs is much more managable…. and doesnt fry the brain thinking about it… hope your week was a great one… and may each new continue to be even better.

Week 4, ok.. I stopped counting the days.. and now are up to weeks.. guess that is a good thing.  I know you are all sitting on pins and needles waiting for the update. Are you sure???

I mean I could talk about other things and just totally forget the weight loss thing… it seems to have become a primary focus of mine.. I am sure that you just cant wait… The world will stop if you dont know wont it??? No other thoughts but… dang it what is it… tell me tell me telll me already….

 

ok… you ready……

 

 

are you sure????

 

 

 

ok… here it is…

total inches lost in the past 4 weeks… is…..

 

 

42.25 inches

 

 

the total weight loss is….

 

25 lbs in 4 weeks..

 

yeah me…

 

I am fighting myself as I wanted it to be more… but I understand and am focusing on … it didnt go on overnight… and to keep it healthy.. it shouldnt come off overnight.. I am averaging 2 – 5 lbs a week… so .. that isnt too bad… and with yesterday being mother’s day… and having a FANTASTIC Dinner… I guess that it is ok that it was 2lbs this past week.. its still a good thing…

 

So there you have it… You can rest now knowing that the saga continues.  I am still partaking of the Herbalife program and doing ok.  No major glitches.. there are moments.. as with any change to eating habits.. its a realization that I cant eat like I used to… Not CANT exactly… but CHOOSE not to.  I CAN eat what ever I want.. I just dont WANT to.  There that sounds better.

Now go.. and think about that candy bar you are thinking about eating or that bagel with cream cheese tomorrow morning.. is it truely worth it?

Day 24

Well today’s update:

Inches :  2.75  making a total of 31.25 inches

and Lbs lost last week 5 making a total of 22.8

Not bad for 3 weeks.

still wish it was more.. but i suppose I should not be greedy.  not too bad all things considered.

Day 20:

 

The past few days have been a bit rougher than I would have perfered… too many temptations… but I passed them.  For now… seems the most difficult time for me is at work .. when there are meetings  (like wednesday’s) where there is food put on the table in front of me.  They are like people at church… everyone has their own place.. and it never changes… so I actually asked the person that runs the meeting to see about changing my place… to one that does not have food placed right under my nose.  I respect other peoples right to eat what ever they want.. just dont want to be forced to have it right under my nose. 

Today there was a QA meeting and I was told I HAD to attend.  Usually I dont mind as it is a working lunch.. which means…. FOOOD… but today.. I really didnt want to be there… but my boss deemed it necessary for me to attend… so .. there I sat.. while everyone else ate… chicken marsailas.. roast beef… green salad with some type of dressing all over it.. green beans that were covered in something buttery looking, potatoes and rolls.. a wonderful meal from what I heard… just everyone kept looking at me… what.. dont you feel good?? oh just have the salad… no I am fine thankyou…

come to find out… I HAD to be there because they brought in the cakes .. for the monthly birthday’s .. of which I was one.. so.. after they cut the cake.. the meeting FINALLY started… I gave my report.. in 15 seconds and left..

Alot of people at work dont know my diet choice.. and to be honest.. I dont care to tell them… most will not understand this type of diet.  and I dont have the umph to deal with everyone. 

So… I have survived… tomorrow makes 3 weeks… Relay for life is tomorrow so.. no puter for me…. will see how that works out… have a great tomorrow…

day 17:

Well another week has passed… took more measurements and weighed in today… here are the updates…

weightloss is up to 17.8 lbs.. only 2.2 this week… keep telling myself 2 lbs a week is suppose to be good.  nice balanced.. not toooo massive .. figure if I keep telling myself that I will believe it.

Inches are up to 28.5 total inches.. so that isnt too bad.. went to the gym monday, wednesday, friday, sat and sunday.  Even convinced the Hubby to go with on Saturday.  He is now a member so that he can go with me on Saturdays.. he is going to work the personal trainer on Wednesday so that he can get an idea of the correct positioning and weights for him to use.

Last week was rough.. we had state inspectors in .. but we did great! 

Did cheat yesterday… had 4 fritos… just four.. and did sniff the bowl.. not sure which added more weight.. think the sniffin may have added a pound or two. 

Thanks for the words of encouragement from those that offer them.. I know.. day by day.. it didnt go on overnight.. wont come off overnight either. 

Did find a great deal on Ebay for from herbalife stuff.. so that was cool.  Will keep looking.. see what else I can find. 

Did get a call from the son… who I havent heard from in about 2 months, and before that was 4 months ago,  the one who basically calls when he wants something.. at the moment.. he wont tell me where he is.. or what he is up too.. but also called his grandmother and uncle up in Mass.  Told them he may be headed up that way and may “pop” in.  Will see where that goes. 

Ok.. that basically puts me up to date… except for a few little tibits that I will add tomorrow.  Thanks for reading… ttfn

day 13

Well have not had alot to blog about.  I am still hanging in there.. doing actually ok.  This is what my day is like:

Breakfast.. 1 vanilla herbalife shake with protein powder

8 oz of skim milk, 1/2 banana, a pinch of sugarfree fatfree pudding for texture and perhaps a bit of ice.  I use a stick blender to blend it up.   occasionally I will have a piece of toast.. with a little cream cheese as well.  AND my handful of pills… 4 prescription and 5 herbalife supplements.

I have a protein bar at 10, which is usually abou the time my stomach goes… heeeeyyyyy I am herrrrre.. so it works out.

Lunch is another herbalife shake at lunch with a bit of frozen strawberry or mixed berry, with protein as well and skim milk.  I even brought a stick blender to work and keep in it my drawer of my credenza. 

2pm comes and its another snack time.. today was cottage cheese and an orange. 

Through out the day I drink Lots and Lots of water and my Herbal Concentrate Tea, that I mix with wylers light singles to go.  I HATE tea.. so it makes it easier to deal with.

No soda’s.. no junk food.  Even yesterday when it was Admin professionals day.. (Note not secretarys day… I am not a secretary..actually a Business Office Manager) someone brought in a spiced cheesecake roll.  and I didnt have any… not even a crumb…   They even had swedish meatballs for lunch.. (one of my favorites) and I was still ok..

At night I have regular dinner with the family at night.  I havent gotten the family to change the dinner menu much, though Hubby and I discussed tonight about cutting back on my portion size as my stomach doesnt seem to hold as much.. I get fuller faster, though the mind keeps trying to say.. eat eat.. its sooooo good. so that should help some.

At night .. I do occasional look for a snack.. especially when the Hubby is eating the ice cream.. or fritos or chocolate.. but I stick to one that I am allowed to eat.. either a protein bar.. or some fruit.. or celery with either pnut butter or cream cheese.. not lots just a bit.

then its time for bed… oh.. did forget the lunch pills.. and dinner pills… 18 a day or there abouts… not too bad..

I have noticed that I dont need as many tylenols lately.. used to be I took them like normal pills.. just to get up and going each day.. now.. I dont…

I am going to the gym 3 – 4 times a week.. still not doing a whole lot .. but each minute there is more than I did before..

So.. that is my day… each day.. every day.. I can change it around but I find that monday through friday.. this works for me… it still allows me to eat normal with the family.

One more day of State Inspectors at the facility.. so even with stress .. still no chocolate.. *grins* Hopefully all will go well tomorrow.  Well there is my blog of what life on my herbalife diet is like..

The hardest part… for a diet… carrying all that stuff to work every morning is a p.i.t.a   I actually dont even miss the morning bagels…. *think if i keep telling myself that I will believe it??? Me either…

Have a great night.

Day 10

Checked the scale… lost 15.6 lbs.  and checked the measurments.. 14 inches less of me.

It may sound like a lot but it isnt in the scale of things.. I have ALOT to loose… someone asked me today.. what is my goal.. i said.. 10 pounds… just ALOT of times.. if I say.. I want to lose 180 lbs.. that seems insermountable… but 10 lbs at a time.. is something that is more within my grasp. 

Home is .. tentative..

Work… state came in today so it will be a hell week. 

Diet is going pretty well now.. no cheating.. no real feeling to cheat.. it always seems that when I get hungry .. its time for a snack.   So it works out ok.  The most cumbersome part is carrying everything back and forth to work.  I dont like to premake the shakes.  They separate a bit.  So I took a stick blender to work and keep it in a drawer..

Ok.. are you bored listening?  Laughs.. I guess I am just not a good blogger.

Will update when something happens worth blogging about.. but so far so good.. a step on the path.