I keep wondering if it will ever get easier…
Last week.. has been a bear… gotta love my Husband and his patience.. I have not only been diet weary but pms’ng at the same time.
What does that mean??? No offering me chocolate to make it better… no stuffing my face with all the bad stuff.. just dealing with the cravings.. and getting through.

I am down 2 more lbs… for a total of 30.4 and up to 54 inches lost. I know.. its alot… for 6 full weeks.. but dang.. I so want it to be like… 50 … and all the saying.. it didnt go on overnight it wont come off over night doesnt make it any easier.
I sat there today and looked at a picture of myself from 1985… and could only stare at it.. what on earth.. why didnt I see then what I see now.

It is so hard realising I have always seen the fat lady in the circus when I looked into the mirror. Even at a time when I was as pretty as the picture showed.
Oh how I wish I learned to see myself different. But hindsight is 20/20 all I can do is try to teach myself not to see things like that anymore. Hard to do now.. when I have created what I always saw.
That too will take time to change. but I hope that someday I will see the truth in the mirror. Ok.. enough of the feeling sorry for myself… I am doing well.. and in time… it will be better. The journey is so long.. but it took 20 plus years to get here… and it was just sooo much more fun getting here than it will be getting back. *laughs* well thanks for listening to my rant. Hope your week was a good week.